Had a BIG revelation last night. My cup is far from full.
You know how David proclaims, with undying gratitude and enduring trust, “My cup overflows!” It gives us the sense that God fills us up so we can overflow. I have experienced this too — being so filled with God that my life, my relationships, my ministry are simply products of overflow. That is actually God’s best plan for each of us.
My latest humbling experience all began at Caribou. I purchased a set of four artsy cups for 75% off — one of those great after-Christmas sales I couldn’t pass up. They are perfect for double shot of espressos. When I brought them home, I decided to arrange ALL of our cups in the cupboard because we were running out of room. We have collected cups and mugs from all over the world (literally) and have way more than any family ever needs. They do enable us to haves brief fantasy vacations while we sip our hot beverages, however.
When Susan arrived home, I decided to excitedly share my organizational efforts (since that’s HER specialty). Her response, which isn’t important for my blog, took me by surprise and hurt my pride. My reaction was — well, surprising even to me. I berated my wife in front of our sons, made a fool of myself, and had a big mess to clean up.
I realized my cup was far from full.
I faced my wrong, killed my pride, apologized to Susan (who deserved none of my venom), and made things right with my sons, too. I can’t say I like humble pie at all. I ate lots of it last night.
All because my cup is fairly empty.
So here’s the crazy thing–I’ve been reading my Bible, preparing lessons and messages, spending time in prayer, and have stayed connected in meaningful fellowship. Why is my cup empty?
Well–that’s a topic for tomorrow. I’ll give you a hint, though. It has everything to do with the condition of my heart.
For now, I need to wash down the bad taste of humble pie with some great espresso from one of those new fancy cups.